Not to be

So, the birthmom decided to parent the baby herself. After getting the news, I was stopped at a red light with my chin on the steering wheel and thought to myself, "Now...was this necessary God? Why get me all excited for a let-down?" An hour later I got a call from an adoption agency in Houston that has 2 babies due in the next month (one is due next week).

We had to go through 2-3 missed opportunities with our foster daughters before they were placed with us. I thought I was ready and then each time we got the call from our caseworker, I thought of 10 more things that needed to be done. Finally, when they called us for Riley and Karlie - we were absolutely prepared and could enjoy the process instead of worry through it.

So, I'm going to just view this as God's season of preparation for me...preparing me for the right baby...our baby.