February 17, 2012
My precious Snowflake babies,
Two years ago your life began, and shortly afterward time was frozen for you. In 17 days, time will be unfrozen and you will have to sink or swim on your own. Your body is only 6 days old, but your existence is much longer.
As your adoptive Mom, I am in awe of how great our God is that He predestined me to be your mother and that you have been waiting for me to give you life. I already love you so much that the thought of the transfer on March 6th both excites and terrifies me. After so many years and months of working towards this point, this time has come for me to either carry you or say goodbye to you.
Just so you know the extent of my trials and tribulation - I want you to know that I’ve been working since January to give up Diet Coke for you. Once you're born you'll realize this is no small thing. I’m down to 8 oz or less of caffeine per day and haven’t had a Diet Coke in a long time. Your Dad seems to be handling my caffeine withdrawals in stride. He's stopped wincing everytime I come into the room and his nervous twitch is almost under control ;).
I’ve been calm throughout this process, trusting God with each step instead of stressing. I originally wanted to do the transfer on February 6th, but we couldn’t get the paperwork together in time. I know God’s plan is perfect and the way he brought us together is a miracle. I wanted to do this from the very first time I heard about Snowflake Babies, but your Dad was a little more hesitant. In fact, I believe his exact words were “No.” Until he heard about you, that is. Then everything changed. After I read him one page of information about you, the first thing he said was, “Let’s do it.”
We finished getting all the paperwork from your doctor’s office in Oklahoma on Monday, and you weren’t supposed to be shipped until next Monday. However, I got a call today from Dr.Lee’s office and Breanna said that my four embryo babies had arrived “safe and sound” and were chillin in the lab. I was so worried about you being shipped on Monday and was planning on praying constantly until you arrived on Tuesday. And look what God did….here you’ve arrived safely before I even knew you were being shipped! God is so good!
I’ve started a countdown on a memo pad in the kitchen. Everyday I get to tear the top one off and see the number of days go down until I meet you. Little ones…I cannot wait. I love you with all my heart,
Love,
Mom
Friday, February 17, 2012
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